Evolving Jeremiah

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Day 2: How did you choose your name? What names were you thinking about using and why?

When it came to choosing my first name, I didn’t have anything in mind. My birth-name isn’t unisex, and there isn’t a male version of the name either. 

My first thought was to transition to a name with the same first letter as my birth-name.

For a while, I wasn’t actively looking for a name, or asking others what they thought I should be called (like I see some people do on tumblr). As I read articles online, or heard names on the news, that started with my birth letter, I would constantly be asking…. Does that name fit me? Do I really like that name?….

It wasn’t until later that I decided I was ready to find my own name, and that just reading the checkers name-tag, at the supermarket, was taking too long. 

So, I started looking around baby name websites. Still interested in finding a name that starts with the same letter as my birth-name. But, I looked and looked, and I said names out loud… none of them really did it for me. So thats when I decided to look at all letters of the alphabet. 

The very first name that i decided was going to be my own, was Josiah. I loved the name, and I didn’t know anybody with that name, which was one of my requirements. But, the first couple of times that my therapist called my Josiah, I was like…. No. Im still not feeling the name.

Thats when I changed to Jeremiah. Which, is now my name. When my doctor, therapist, dad, friends…. when anyone uses my name, I feel comfortable. I feel like it belongs to me. Rather, with Josiah, when my therapist called that name, I felt disconnected. Like, if you were to call out that name, I may not turn around, because I wouldn’t realize you were calling me.

As for my middle name, that is something I hope my parents will help me figure out further down the road. As of right now, I don’t have one, but I wont need it until I go to change my documents.

Haven’t Purged Since

September 24th, 2011! I have 8 months purge free.

But today, after I had just finished eating breakfast, and everything was going well (or so I thought..) I was thinking of some stressful things that happening, and low and behold…

That ache in the pit of my stomach began to grow, and my chest felt heavy, as the thought that reminded me, “C’mon Jeremiah, You know how to handle situations like these. You can make ALL the anxiety go away. Don’t you remember how to do it? haha, It hasn’t been that long silly boy.”

I looked at the clock to see the time… My stepdad was due home any minute.

“Tick-tock. You don’t want to get caught and be seen as the sick child again.”

And thats what did it for me. Instead of purging, I used that thought to pull myself together. 

So, today, I am proud to say that I am still 8 months purge free!

DAY 1: When did you first identify with the term, “Transgender?”

  • Mid- 2009 I learned what "transgender" meant for the first time. I didn't have an "A-HA!" moment, when I automatically knew that I identified with the term.. But, prior to learning the meaning, I had labeled myself a lesbian since I was 10 years old. I researched what it meant, I learned about transgender men, and women... Eventually, I was convinced that this is the term I have been looking for all along. I remember thinking to myself, almost two years ago, I'm not a lesbian... I'm a straight guy!" I wanted to go out and cut my hair, but my parents wouldn't let me. ...a few weeks later, my brother died, and all I thought about was him. I didn't put anymore attention to my transgender questions and uncertainties. It wasn't until September 2011 that I be-friended a transgender woman, the same age as me. Getting to know her, and hearing her talk about how liberating it has been for her to transition.. Getting to talk about our different dysphoria.. Also, just, witnessing her journey... That is when I really began to connect with the transgender identity. (Also, talking with other trans-guys online, and when I got my first packer..) I began to feel 200% more confident than I ever did as a female.

30 Day Trans*- Challenge

30 day trans challenge

01. When did you first identify with the term, “transgender?”
02. How did you choose your name? What names were you thinking about using and why? 
03. Have you ever been outed?
04. How did your family take it when you came out? or, if you’re not out yet, what’s holding you back?
05. Are you active in the trans or LGBTQ community? If so, how?
06. Who was the first person you told about being trans? 
07. Who do you look up to?  
08. In the beginning of your transition, how did you deal with being misgendered?
09. What is something positive about being trans?  
10. What are some of your fears in regards to being trans? 
11. How do you manage dysphoria?  
12. What are you doing to stay healthy for transitioning mentally and physically? 
13. How do you handle the bathroom dilemma?
14. What are some of your passing tips?  
15. How have you embraced your trans identity? 
16. What’s your rock anthem and why? 
17. What are your binding and packing choices, and why? 
18. How do you feel about the trans laws where you live?  
19. How do your religious views impact your being trans? If you have none, what about your parents’ religious views?
20. Do you want to be a parent? Why or why not? 
21. What are your views on the cisgender community?
22. Do you feel being trans holds you back from your career choice?  
23. What stereotypes are put on trans people?  
24. Who is your favorite LGBT actor, musician, artist, etc? Why are they your favorite?
25. What are your doctor/therapist visits like?  
26. Are you comfortable answering questions about being transgender when a teacher, friend, family, or stranger ask you? 
27. What goals do you have in regards to your transition? Aside from your transition?
28. What is something you do daily to feel comfortable with yourself?
29. Write out something positive about yourself using the letters of your name. Ex. Bob: Badass Outstanding Boy
30. Write a haiku about being trans.

Stalking the Mail-Person.. Waiting for my First Underworks Binder to Arrive!!

S.A.G.E Test Results

S.A.G.E. Test Results

Your Raw Score is: -970, which indicates that overall you are Masculine

Your appearance is Androgynous

Your brain processes are mostly that of a Masculine Male person.

You appear to socialize in a very masculine manner.

You believe you have normal doubts about your gender identity.

You indicated your were born Female.

ANALYSIS:
Female to Male Transsexual, either post-operative or in transition 

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part2of3:

used to be the simpsons opening had a different couch gag with each episode. anymore they hide a ton of silly, weird, fun stuff in every opener.

part2of3:

used to be the simpsons opening had a different couch gag with each episode. anymore they hide a ton of silly, weird, fun stuff in every opener.

simonnothing:

This is how I’m choosing to deal with my dysphoria. I taped newspaper on my mirror, so when I walk by I won’t see my chest. 

Great idea. 

simonnothing:

This is how I’m choosing to deal with my dysphoria. I taped newspaper on my mirror, so when I walk by I won’t see my chest. 

Great idea. 

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Beautiful model!

Beautiful model!

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weirdenlightenment:

back on track :)

weirdenlightenment:

back on track :)